let's change the world.

like every other day i was going through the newspaper in the morning today. at the last page i stumbled upon a cartoon. the idea of the cartoon was THE WORLD needs immediate help regarding THE CLIMATE CHANGE. but 911 operator tells THE WORLD that everyone is busy in climate summit in Cancun.

global warming, climate change is a well known issue to all by now. so the leaders of our country are sorting this out in a conference. but they seem to have bit of a trouble. let's face it, we all are endangered at the issue of climate change. democracy is an effective yet slow process (though I'm not an expert to make such comment.) so is the climate change. climate change didn't occur overnight. it took time and we all had our contribution to it. so we can't expect that the problem will disappear overnight and someone will do the work for us.

let's all do our best and work together hand in hand to make a better world.you all know what to do.

so, come on everyone. let's do it together.

an out brust of anger

for a long time i had been suppressing my anger on different matter. most recent of it are the ones related to my higher education, H.S.C. results. i had been suffering from depression for some time now. now when most of the options have been terminated by will or against will, i find myself in a critical condition. i don't have much choices to consider.as i was called by my parents in the evening today i couldn't not hold my anger which i fostered ( i don't know if that's the right word for it. I'm disturbed at the moment) burst out, condemning my father for my failure, by myself. yet i'm not sorry for it. you probably know all the sunnahs regarding parents, even i do, but tonight i couldn't help it. i know I'll be the sufferer in the long run. but tonight (this might sound insane) i feel relieved and light minded.

i have made a move based on emotion. for the same reason i believe that i will go through a transformation later on. after which I'll either be stronger, a man without emotion, or I'll be more fragile. yet, I've nothing to loose.

Today is not the last day on Earth.

I never imagined this day will ever come. The day when i face so many problem at once. the day i feel that my life has become useless. the day i face all my miseries. the day when i realize that i have wasted my life and i'm unfortunate to be still alive.

of course the current state i'm in has took days to surface. it all began with hsc results. when it got revealed that i don't have a bright academic result. but i still believed that if i study hard enough eventually i'll make a break through. but it didn't work out. day by day i lost my confidence, my will to do better. at this very day it seems i have used up my spiritual energy once again. i don't know how i will recover and get back to myself again. i was confident i'll get a opportunity to take the iut admission test. but it didn't work out as i expected it to be. slowly i lost the confidence that i'll will qualify for kuet. so i didn't make much arrangements ahead of time. i will be able to reach khulna and take the test but i don't have any clue how i'm going to reach rajshahi in time. it was till a minute ago that i realized i didn't even print my DU admit card. i was so tensed about everything around me that i forgot about the admit card. tanzir came and collected his admit card from me, even-though, it slipped from my mind. now, at dead of the night i'm trying to fix my printer and get a usable print of my admit card.

i've got a feeling my distress won't end soon. for me its just the beginning of the evening. i still got to survive through the night. for me, today is not the last on earth.

Choosing the right Anti-Virus program.

Many of my friends were asking me “Which Anti-Virus to buy?”

Answer: Well it depends. Personally I’ve used Bit Defender™ for 14 months. And I was satisfied. Here’s what I did:-

When you download a program from the internet it doesn’t give you the total facilities which are provided with the real software. Even they do provide them, I have no way to download them all and evaluate them one by one. So what I did I went to www.pcworld.com and checked their reviews on Anti-Virus software. Then I checked out the market rates. Bit Defender™ Total security pack is for Tk.1050 (1 user), Tk.2500 (3 users; means about Tk.833per user.)So I talked with Tanzir and bought a 3 user Bit Defender™ Total security. I sold the remaining slot to Irfan later on. It served me well and I’m very happy with its service. Now my license has expired I’m thinking to buy a new one.

Enough about me. Now let’s start with you.

There are lots of factors you should consider before you buy an original Anti-Virus program. But I’m going to skip those and start right away on possible scenarios.

###Virus is eating me alive. I don’t have time to deal with all those problems related with virus. I have the money. Let’s just get over with it.
If the line above express you, than buy Norton 2010. Easy to handle, deals with almost everything.

### I have money to buy licensed software and I also have some time to sit in front of the computer and remove each and every malware present in my computer.

Buy Bit Defender™ total security pack.

### I neither have the money to buy licensed software nor the time to sit before my computer and fix problems. However I have no problem to leave my running.

Download the latest AVG Home version from the internet.

### I’m not willing to spend money on stupid licensed software. I’m a geek. I can handle viruses.

Download clam win.



Ok. Now that being said let me tell you the draw backs.

Clam win, Norton, avg can’t remove all viruses. Avg can be slow and annoying some times. Bit Defender™ has a “not so good” GUI. But it gets the job done.

But THE MOST IMPORTANT advice is, if you frequently visit PORNOGRAPHIC WEBSITES and download PORNOGRAPHIC MATERIALS, no antivirus software is strong enough.

STAY SAFE.

Maisun Ibn Monowar.



P.S. Still being bugged. i was. Then I switched to Ubuntu. ~Maisun 12/06/2011
2010-08-31

beggining of 2010

1st of January. it signifies the starting point of another year. we wish everyone of our friends "Happy New Year". but is it always "Happy" and always "New"?i think not. that's why this year i didn't wish everyone a "Happy New Year".


in our life we do many mistakes. this is a truth which is undeniable. but we look forward to mend it. to start afresh. but there are some memories of mistakes which can't be left behind, something that haunt for life, something that holds you back, something for which you are what you are today. that's why in this joyous occasion i pray to Allah, that please let this year be of less misfortune. that's why some things better be old. and some things suit better as unhappy. because that is exactly what will give me strength in my grief danger.

i also recall a friend of mine who called me last night just a few minutes before 2009 became 2010. he advised me to keep in touch with the old friends. but it is my misfortune that no matter how hard i try i won't be suitable for some particular groups to fit in. i have decided to leave few things as it were. perhaps it is best for me. but I'm grateful to Omio that he remembered me yesterday after so many years. thanks man i owe you one.

May Allah bless everyone this year.

Maisun

past, present and disaster

From my childhood I have dreamed of being a successful man. But my dreams never came true and still it hasn't. For me, test exam is running at the college. As my previous test scores were not up to the standard, I planed to do better in this exam. But what an irony of faith, I lost all my interests in studies. Even after that, I'm buried with some extra responsibilities. So at the end of the day, I look for a source of inspiration. A ray of hope which will get me going. They say, prepare for the worst and hope for the best. Now all I can do is hope for the best. But I am not prepared for the worst.

As for coaching centers, I’m having a second thought. When I look back into my own life story, I find that, I never got detached from coaching centers. In my early childhood I gained coaching for school admission, handwriting [still it sucks till now]. My mom used to take me to shafollo coaching center. Sometimes my dad used to send his official jeep for the same purpose. When I grew up a little, I walked alone. Then in mcsp, inspite of having standard marks, my name came up for extra classes. The teachers believed I could so more but I’m holding back my efforts. Coming to Dhaka I admitted myself in 4 private classes at once. But now when I seek the result of these coaching, I find that I’m still same old Maisun. An average student. So now I have planned to make a daring attempt. I decided not to emphasis on coaching classes rather to train myself. I look forward to find the inner strength dormant within me and awake it.

Wish me luck guys.

Maisun ibn Monowar

this is me.

Q: what happens when a crow wears a peacock suit?
A: nothing happens. it stays as a crow.

we can take the lesson in our real world. there are countless people who try to conceal their true identity and pretend to be something else. does it really help? no, it doesn't. it satisfies a mind momentarily. but in the long run you are ashamed of your deeds. that's why you should stick to yourself.

now, we have some natural classifications in our day to day society. we have high class people, middle class people and lower class people. again, each of these class have several levels, like lower middle class, upper middle class etc. these classification originate naturally. you inherit them by birth. you may upgrade your class by hard work, earning more money at a greater rate..... but that doesn't really help. most people who apparently upgrade their class by earning more money still bear the thoughts, behaviors of his old self. and again, their are some people who don't earn that much of money, but through education their thoughts and behavior evolve. but due to their low bank balance they are looked down upon. people, no matter in which class they belong bear a common characteristics, they strive to achieve more power and money, causing unrest in the society, corruptions.

we do not have the courage to step out of all odds and to act differently, boldly. can't we accept what we are? shouldn't we be grateful that we are still in a sound health and mind. it won't me rich if you say so, it won't make me poor if you curse me. no matter how many fat names you assign to me, i won't be changing drastically. you can't help it, you can't change it, you can't complain about it.

i know who i am. i know who i wanna be. i know what I'm gonna do. i know my past. i know my present. i will fabricate my future.


this is me......... this is who i am......... i am Maisun Ibn Monowar.