Today is not the last day on Earth.

I never imagined this day will ever come. The day when i face so many problem at once. the day i feel that my life has become useless. the day i face all my miseries. the day when i realize that i have wasted my life and i'm unfortunate to be still alive.

of course the current state i'm in has took days to surface. it all began with hsc results. when it got revealed that i don't have a bright academic result. but i still believed that if i study hard enough eventually i'll make a break through. but it didn't work out. day by day i lost my confidence, my will to do better. at this very day it seems i have used up my spiritual energy once again. i don't know how i will recover and get back to myself again. i was confident i'll get a opportunity to take the iut admission test. but it didn't work out as i expected it to be. slowly i lost the confidence that i'll will qualify for kuet. so i didn't make much arrangements ahead of time. i will be able to reach khulna and take the test but i don't have any clue how i'm going to reach rajshahi in time. it was till a minute ago that i realized i didn't even print my DU admit card. i was so tensed about everything around me that i forgot about the admit card. tanzir came and collected his admit card from me, even-though, it slipped from my mind. now, at dead of the night i'm trying to fix my printer and get a usable print of my admit card.

i've got a feeling my distress won't end soon. for me its just the beginning of the evening. i still got to survive through the night. for me, today is not the last on earth.