Was it a mistake?

My target was BUET  and BUET only. My ancestors have graduated from this University, so I had to get in.


Unfortunately I couldn't. for about a year, I was a hopeless undergrad student desperately looking for ways to get back to 'glory'.


I tried to explore every bit of possibility to excel. I push my academic activities to the limit. I studied extra in the library to attain quality. I tried to brush up my communication skills. I tried to pick up some leadership skills. And now when the time has come to upgrade myself, I find myself struggling, out of stamina, gasping for air.

I find my friends and seniors studying MBA in hope for a better life.

What awaits my fate? Where's the mistake? More importantly, did I make any mistakes?

As the time passed by, I was fortunate to meet more people. Seniors whom I haven't meet before. To this date, they are proud engineers. Not all of them have a spot light job. Not all of them are getting promotion or raise every year. But the are surviving with honor.

I might be struggling to get myself to the next stage, but even I am confident enough, if I can graduate from EEE department, I can land a decent job with ease. It might not be high paying. It might not be even an engineer's post. Nevertheless, inshallah, I will not have any trouble finding a job.


Inshallah, a day will come in the near future, when being a EEE graduate will be enough. No, I'm not joking. Just compare the numbers. Number of EEE graduates retaining their original line of work would be less than a percent of first semester students. You cannot ignore a person who has survived this far.


You don't lose when you fall. You lose when you stopped believing your self. No. It wasn't a mistake.

Bottom of the Pyramid

I'm very noisy about two things. First, I hate Windows and Apple; I love Linux, even though I hardly understand computer science. I've never dug deep into Linux and here I'm claiming Linux is the future. Windows keeps crashing all the time. Mac runs everything, virus free, beautiful and yet I hate Apple for the secretive non modular approach. All I know, if the wiki says it works on Linux, it just works. If it says it doesn't work, then I pray and hope that someone will soon fix it.

Secondly, education system. I hated it when I has to study 12 different subjects in school. Working with WNES I still cherished that principle, until I took Khalil Sir's class.

It's true that exploring subjects wastes some time. But it's necessary so that you do not waste your life. Imagine a big castle. Where there are many rooms and dungeons filled with treasures and mysterious items. If you stop exploring yourself in the first room and settle there, you'll never know what you missed. Who knows, the subject you didn't study in school, might have had changed your world.

However, overtime, we have closed our mind. There are only handful of teachers around who can guide you through the doors of the castle. I'm not sad that I wasted my second year of University in club activities. It has taught me how to connect with people. I'm not sad that I had to spend 4 months in TARC, because I met a great person. I'm not sad that I had to say goodbye to a great person, because that taught me to accept the truth and with it came great clarity of mind.

I am sad now, because I've to acquire a special skill set in limited amount of time and I desperately seek for guidance. I'm confident, I'll somehow manage to meet the deadline, but now I can sense the gap between bottom of the pyramid and the top of the pyramid.