What we've become?

1. Eid is one of the few days you have better chance for forgiveness from The Almighty. It offers you a chance of cleansing. Right now, I can think of only other event that provides similar opportunity, Hajj. Mere thought of punishment of hell should make you tremble in fear. For some reason I could never connect to those emotions. Is it because my heart made of stones? I think not. I like to think my heart is made of Plastic. Recycled Industrial Plastic. It works. Durable. Easy to repair. Artificial.
2. Speaking of artificial, there is one more thing I was able to fake flawlessly. Smile. Want to land that next business deal? Present yourself with a smile. Want that job? Present yourself with a smile. I got so good at faking, that it actually ended up looking original.
3. I used to have fun on Eid. Then life happened. Me and my friends got scattered across country. Across entire globe. Only few remains within my immediate reach. I could go and hangout with them. This would mean Hiring a cab only to pay him at least double fare for driving me 5 minutes in this empty city. Then go for a snack in some coffee shop with the whole group. As a freelancer, I make decent amount of money now and then. But I never managed enough courage to get inside one of these coffee shop to get myself cup of coffee. The problem doesn’t stop there. As a student, DIYer, curious mind; I want to share my ideas with people. Have a fruitful discussion. Only way I can do that is by spending a fortune on coffee shops. It’s all about money now a days. If only there was a concept of a place where you could relax on a summer afternoon, chit chat with your friends, spend a good time with your family. Oh wait! There is something like that. It’s called public park. We HAD some of those here in Dhaka. Not sure what it has become now.
4. There will be good and evil sides of all entities. It is not unusual for people to have 2 faces. I can handle people with 2 faces. In face we all have few faces. I’m not the same person when I’m with my little sister, in comparison to when I’m with my professor, my friends, my boss. Now we have few more faces to put up. One for Facebook. One for Twitter. One for instagram. Yes, the image I have of myself on Facebook, doesn’t match with my real life image. The image of myself on my BlogSpot site, doesn’t match with my main web site. I understand that. When I interact with a person I remember these facts. What I’m afraid of, when I’ll look myself in the mirror after 40 years; who will I be?

Connecting ... with People !!! [part 1]

I never really had friends. From the very beginning. I can't remember why, but I always preferred staying at home and reading a book rather than going out and breaking a leg. I did find cycling interesting, but that too was short lived.

I remember Pokemon (Yes! Pokemon. Yellow mouse with electricity) gave me a common ground to talk to other people around me. That was the first time I actually made friends. Then again Pokemon caused a lot of controversies among us. To elders, it was simply childish. To me, it was nonsense. It was way too much effort for me to set the records straight.

I military school, not many had interest on emerging technology. Therefore, my friend circle was actually few dots. 

Same goes to college. I could never actually caught up.

In University, I never really bothered to expand my friend circle. Or even, make it a circle. 

This has left me with a peculiar problem. I have absolutely no clue how to interact with my fellow earthlings. I could hide this fact easily before, but now things have changed. I mean, when you are that guy who stands in the corner with an empty glass on a conference dinner, you are kind of hard not to notice. Same applies to other social gatherings.

To this day, I could connect with very few peoples around me. They give me a great source of comfort. I have my gratitude to express to the following people.

1. Ocean >> For letting me join with him to form a BiCycle gang.
2. Towkir >> For compensating me for my broken scale
3. Azim >> Joining me on a quest for computer from within the closed campus
4. Turkey >> For simply being him
5. Imran >> The first Sonnetier
6. Arranya >> The second Sonnetier
7. Tanzir >> The third Sonnetier 
8. Asif >> Fellow EEE
9. Shakil >> Kind of my arch enemy, the guy with an Apple
10. Essa >> Adults, but still watching cartoons
11. Sadaf >> The CSEEE
12. Zafor >> Dude, come to the good side. Come to Ubuntu.
13. Kafi (vai) >> For being technical badass with people skills.

So forgive me people. If you ever find me staring at you, saying nothing, I'm probably trying to figure out what communication protocol to use.

[Disclaimer: I have more names to express my gratitude to. Stay tuned and enjoy music by James Blunt.]