for a long time i had been suppressing my anger on different matter. most recent of it are the ones related to my higher education, H.S.C. results. i had been suffering from depression for some time now. now when most of the options have been terminated by will or against will, i find myself in a critical condition. i don't have much choices to consider.as i was called by my parents in the evening today i couldn't not hold my anger which i fostered ( i don't know if that's the right word for it. I'm disturbed at the moment) burst out, condemning my father for my failure, by myself. yet i'm not sorry for it. you probably know all the sunnahs regarding parents, even i do, but tonight i couldn't help it. i know I'll be the sufferer in the long run. but tonight (this might sound insane) i feel relieved and light minded.
i have made a move based on emotion. for the same reason i believe that i will go through a transformation later on. after which I'll either be stronger, a man without emotion, or I'll be more fragile. yet, I've nothing to loose.
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